I am no angel and I have had my struggles and I have them to this day... I have made mistakes... some extremely terrible ones... Even when I was so engulfed in the word... My faith was and has always been very strong but man life can get hard when everything around you falls apart and you don't understand why... I wavered from my faith and questioned God so many times as to why so many terrible things kept happening in my life... I will never know why there has been so much suffrage. The only thing I can think of is he is preparing me for the heartache that that many will have... and he has been preparing me for times such as these. I think the birth pains that the entire world is feeling right now is what many people are feeling internally...The anxiety that many people are facing now with all of the uncertainties of the world is triggering so much turmoil. I have been faced with these adversities throughout my existence...The turmoil I am seeing around the world compares to the childhood and the life that I have had and have led. I worry about the people who will not be able to stand the tests and the trials and tribulations that are to come rather swiftly. I thought with my faith I was prepared to withstand many and all temptations; only to find the ones tempting me were not there to help or benefit me. The people in my life wanted to see me fail and fall... they weren't there to help me grow... many of the people I surrounded myself with were unhealed and troubled souls. I would take upon their pain as if it were my own... and heal them while they truly hated how I was an overcomer. The devil used those things/people to pull me into their darkness to make me wither and become drained... They drained my energy as the worlds love energy is slowly being depleted... This is how the dark entities of the world are... they disguise themselves as love and light until they rage war within you! If I could turn back and really realize that the wars that were being raged against me were to ravage my soul... I would have listened to Gods voice more rather than my own... I pray the world can withstand the things to come because the world has tried to take ahold of me many times and I failed often; even when I knew who I had always belonged... If a person like me can get caught on a wrong road... It only pains my heart for the ones who don't know for the things... that are to come.... I pray the Angel Army protects all of us called by his name....