Take Up the Cross

When you live in the ways of the world and you live according to the purpose of the worldly influences; troubles will not inflict your life; as is does being a follower of Christ! Being a follower of Christ means you have to be convicted, accountable and have a conscious for all of the wrong you have inflicted upon your life or upon the lives of others.... Living in the world keeps you in a fog that you don't see any wrong with your actions or the pain you inflict upon others. This is how you start to discern and break free from bondages... When you try to break free from the things that bind you to the world more troubles will come upon your way... It is though you have two people living inside of you... One that knows right and one that knows wrong.... In your soul you want to be free but that freedom comes with a cost....The work it takes is a long and troubled road... Searching every inner most part of yourself of they why's, who and how you got to where you are today.... You have to meat yourself all they way... all the good and ugly. You have to remember you are not only facing the troubles you have had in this life... you are also facing the bondage of your ancestors... If you weren't raised ideally and any worldly influences that were over your parents, grandparents, great grandparents and so forth have left an imprint on your path of existence. When they were unable to overcome the obstacles that were presented to them... they carried that pain within them that overflows into your life.... You aren't them and they aren't you... I know it is a hard fact to face but the tools your ancestors were given may not have been the best... When you look at every person in your life... know trouble waters and storms come upon us all...But you have to look into you and make you better; despite what has been passed to you along the way. I lived in bondage of my past, my parents past and the pain of my ancestors that stifled the direction of the life I always desired for myself... I made so many wrong choices, I made so many bad decisions because of the pain that was inflicted upon me through the pain of others... Meet yourself where you are today... Forgive yourself... forgive the people who have done you wrong and let it all go... If Judas Iscariot could betray Jesus; what makes you think that the people closest to you couldn't betray you... Take up the cross and leave the burdens of the world.... meet yourself where you are today and surrender to the old you and the bondage of your ancestors.