March 07th, 2021

I have had some recent events that have turned my world right side up! For so long I have been running in a Hamster Wheel and I kept going around and around and around! I have never followed the crowd but it seems; as though I have allowed people to crowd my life and my values. I realized that I haven't been following my true path and walk in life. I was circling around in the cycle of insanity... always trying to please and do for everyone within my circle aka my hamster wheel. I was always trying to build people up to become their true potential. I was raising a child that wasn't mine. I was running ragged trying to help my paraplegic brother; whom has recently passed. I was trying to fix all my broken friends, family, loved ones and  strangers. Meanwhile I was being crippled by life events. I don't know what had happened to me. The struggle and guilt of those I didn't help devoured me internally.