My best advice for people who have gone through traumatic events in life is to surround yourself with good music, friends. books, adventure and move through every emotion that you are feeling. Do not mask yourself or hide from your hurt and pretend you are okay! Own it and Own you... your feelings are important and that is how you release the sadness that has been overcoming your senses to insanity. The insanity of not allowing yourself to just be, breathe and acknowledge you are hurt by life and the people who have hurt you. I never acknowledged the pain from my childhood or throughout my life. I bottled everything up and pretended that I was okay. Smiling, laughing and just being. The fact is I was not okay. Everyone knew me as their rock and the strongest person they knew... I had to be strong; it is all I ever knew.... I just wanted one person in my life to just be there for me for once and it always turned into me helping them. It tired my soul and took my light away and breath away... taking on their pain on top of mine, depleted me. The people in your life are supposed to help balance you out and bring out the best in you and remind you of the light you shine. I don't understand why others try to destroy people... something I will never understand. The majority of the people in your life are not there for you but only for a benefit for themselves. I can honestly say that there are very few people in my life that have ever truly had my best interest at heart. I have had friends tell me they were always jealous of me. What? Why? I was told because I light up rooms when I walk in, my personality and much more. Those things broke my heart.... these are the people that knew everything I had been through in my life and I couldn't wrap my head around it.... These people don't root for you... they secretly despise everything in you that they are not.... be careful of the friendships you develop in life. Seriously, not everyone is your friend... true light beings allow you to be you and you talk about beautiful things and your worst days. They never wish harm upon you and truly want to help you on your journey. They don't gossip about others or call just when something bad is happening in their life. I have been a genuine friend to all my friends and I can say only five people in my circle have never intentionally tried to hurt me and if they did promptly apologized. Two of my friends have left this journey because they were called home and three of them remain. I wish when I was going through everything I would have leaned unto those three and not upon the foes in my life. When you can be real, raw and transparent that is how you know that is your true tribe. Lean unto those that have heart and soul... embrace all your flaws, your pain and overcome... Never sit in silence but be silent to those that don't really care about your well being.... you will know them by their words and actions... much love, light, hope and love from my heart to yours...