Before the Holy Spirit can truly live inside of you... you have to do some earth shattering self discovery and get real with yourself. You have to be willing to look at the ugliest parts of yourself... the person you are to the world and the person you are when you are all alone. You have to really look at all those choices you have made to be unkind to yourself or others. You can not leave anything out. You have to go full force into yourself and examine every cell, thought, words spoken, bad behaviors and truly own every damaged part of yourself that you damaged unto others or they have damaged unto you. You have to fully surrender! You can not leave one speck unturned! You have to go to the Heavenly Father and admit wrong doing that you have ever done to another human being; place or thing. The Holy Spirit wants you to truly know him and to know the tricks of the adversaries in and of your life... You have to put on the whole armour of Our Lord.