​You can find so much peace in the little things that life has to offer... while today there is so much changing in the world; many times it is hard to find balance...between work, home, family, relationships and all the world chaos that is changing at a rapid speed... Our generation is not used to all of the changes that is occurring Nationwide and in the entirety of human existence and it produces so much fear and anxiety for what the future holds for our children and the generations to come.... We all tend to live in our little bubbles; while neglecting what is happening in one another's lives... my hope for all is that the bubbles begin to burst and people can get real and raw about each others struggles....My hope is love begins to pour abundantly unto mankind... today just find a little laughter, a little spark and ignite your hearts with compassion.... much love from my heart to yours.... 

​You can find so much peace in the little things that life has to offer... while today there is so much changing in the world; many times it is hard to find balance...between work, home, family, relationships and all the world chaos that is changing at a rapid speed... Our generation is not used to all of the changes that is occurring Nationwide and in the entirety of human existence and it produces so much fear and anxiety for what the future holds for our children and the generations to come.... We all tend to live in our little bubbles; while neglecting what is happening in one others lives... my hope for all is that the bubbles begin to burst and people can get real and raw about each others struggles....My hope is love begins to pour abundantly unto mankind... today just find a little laughter, a little spark and ignite your hearts with compassion.... much love from my heart to yours.... 

When you release all of the burdens of your past is when you find freedom. The weight is no longer on your shoulders or weighing you down. Throughout life when you carry the burdens of your own pain and carry the burdens of others pain it can take a toll on your physical, mental, spiritual and physical being.  We all go through life looking for answers as to why certain people did the things they did or why our lives have turned out the way they have. One day you wake up and just let it all go and it doesn't matter anymore...You will never get the answers or closure you are looking for; other than just moving on and forgiving those whom have put you in harms way. What matters is today and what you do for the remainder of your days.  We have no control over death, people treating us poorly or broken promises from the people in our lives. Maybe there is just a Divine plan in all of the madness. I always lived my life this way understanding that things unfold the way they do for a reason and I lost sight of that for quite some time. When I started trying to control things that I didn't have control over or rather than relying on my Faith; as I always had...my life turned upside down and I made some crazy decisions that I would have otherwise not have made... if I would have continued to live according to knowing that God always provides and works everything together for his good. The Divine plan is about his plan and not mine! Whomever I am supposed to be with in the life will arrive, where we are to live will arrive; the jobs will arrive, the people, places and things will arrive... I only want what is good and of God; not what is bad and of man who lives according to the world....who is meant for our lives will stay and what isn't will be gone if we live according to the will of God.... If people aren't bringing you closer in your walk of Faith they weren't sent by the all mighty... they were sent from the deceiver that wishes to seek, kill and destroy... that is how you know them by their fruits...  as always... much love from my heart to yours and reclaim you today! 

The hardest lesson you will learn in life is knowing that hearts aren't as pure as yours. The deepest sorrow one can ever feel in the loneliness in a world of over 7.8 billion people. You think you connect with other humans  on a soul level and to find that the selfishness that resides on this planet is like living in a living hell. Many don't have the compacity to truly love! Love was supposed to be the Royal Law and the royal law has been lost. We are to love thy neighbor and most neighbors become mortal enemies. The closest people to us; do the most damage and have no remorse for the damage they have done or caused. It is a sad day knowing the time has come that the hearts of mankind are the desires of selfishness and not selflessness. A man who lays down his life for his brother is one of the greatest loves of all. I laid down my own happiness time and time again to help others upon their journey to be left in the wilderness. I have traveled through the wilderness for forty eight years alone without a genuine soul to love me other than my children. The years have gone by and I have been damaged by the rage of the deceitful souls I have encountered. I once had the biggest heart full of bliss, love and light... no matter what I had been through I was still helping other rise to the top or just get through their days. The greatest treasures I will ever have are the pure hearts of the four children that came from my flesh to emit their beautiful light from their souls unto a dying civilization. I pray the lessons I taught to each one of them never departs from their souls and the pain of this world never devours their lives. I pray for their souls to be reunited the the Holy of Holy and the know they have to fight the good fight, as I have. The greatest lesson for my children is to learn that love is what makes the world dance and to hold onto each other. I pray that my children find who they are evenly joked with and people do not play with their fragile hearts... I pray that my children understand they love I hold for each one of them and I have left them each with a unique imprint of my soul and heart to help them on their journey. My greatest hope is that they find the strength to love themselves fully and to never allow pain to cripple their lives and to work through each things that hardens their heart each day to facilitate growth to master forgiveness and love but to never take the pain of others as a reflection of their worth... I pray that the curse of darkness is filled with light... I pray for humanity in this same way...laughter, honesty, forgiveness, kindness, truth, loyalty, compassion, acceptance and understanding.... to truly love is the only way to inner peace...forever and always my heart to yours

Death is stricken by the last breath one exhales and all through life was just breathing to end up taking the last breath of their destined life path. We all know the day will come when we will never exist on this planet but none of us know how it will end. Suicide is the one that baffles us and leaves those of us behind wondering. Pain is real and 1 out of 5 Americans has thought about suicide at one time or another. What makes some keep fighting and holding onto to life and what makes one finally decide that everyone's lives are truly better without them. To feel responsible for not being a better friend, lover, sister, brother, wife, husband, aunt, uncle. mother, father, grandparent or co worker may just be the reality. Nobody wants to feel like a burden or be a burden unto others. Nobody wants to feel like they aren't worth it and nobody should ever have to feel alone with billions of people on this planet.  I will never understand why there are so many mean people in this world. I will never understand why people try to intentionally hurt others... I will never understand why... Is suicide preventable? Is it the one last word you said to someone the tipping point in their choice to live or to die or do people truly don't want to be a burden any longer? Love can cure a multitude of ills... but death can end that persons pain from the illness of despair....but maybe they were tired of feeling alone and that nobody truly cared... In honor of Cimarron, Lonny, Teresa... IN God for their souls....

As fall is approaching and the leaves begin to change; so does the weather. As the weather changes and the seasons of the past are left behind so should the weights of life. We can never go back to what once was; we can only run to what may be.  Life is like a tree... a tree starts as a seed...then the roots begin to develop once it is grounded within the soil.  Once the soil gives nourishment to the veins it carries the nutrients up to the branches; leaves begin to form or beautiful flowers dress up the new life form.  Each year a tree develops new rings according to the years it has been growing... Our bodies are the same and so are our souls. We need to take the wisdom that we have achieved through this game of life  as each year passes and realize that some things need to be shed from our lives. If people, places or things to do facilitate growth for you to bloom you will not grow to your full potential and your life will be uprooted like a tree who has gone through a storm...be true to you and all the things that that allow you to dance freely like the leaves do in the wind... much love from my heart to yours...